I discovered drawing as an extension of my practice during the isolation/instability of COVID as a method to better understand & communicate what was happening around me, in the news (nationalisms/racism that rallied around the virus) and to me (the fear of illness, and anxiety of waiting to access gender affirming care in the dysfunctional Swedish Healthcare system). These drawings unite encyclopedic details about animals/nature with quotes from social media & appropriations from popular culture. This non-linear, visual diary, style of mapping allows me to synthesize various temporalities-of life dealing with depression, of being put on hold by the system and ways of gaining agency.